So how to turn this unfortunate last chapter into closure?? Maybe Clara herself gave us the answer in that last quote – choosing to look positively ahead rather than dwell on the obvious negativity swirling around her.
It is important to remember that Clara led a brilliant life and was always surrounded by good and loving family and friends. And while this controversy hurt and saddened her, it did not change her life’s trajectory or diminish what was in her heart. She was so much bigger than that.
It is now almost 10 years later. The wounds are still open. Steve feels his professional reputation was irreparably damaged by Reid and the Levnet mob, and Reid feels that Clara’s trust was stolen from him by Steve.
At the time, I had wanted to believe that Reid was acting in what he thought were Clara’s best interests, and was just misguided in overstepping some fundamental civil boundaries. But frankly, Reid himself never allowed me to honestly arrive at that belief — for one thing, Reid never did return any of the photocopies, and some in the family have doubts that he returned all the original materials.
For another, Reid has continued to go public with his anger and grief. As recently as April 2006, Reid posted dramatic writings on public Internet forums (Theremin World, CriticalPoet.com, etc.) that exaggerate his own role in Clara’s life, diminish and misrepresent our family’s role during those years, further denigrate Steve, and at times even invade Clara’s privacy. Much of what he wrote is sweet and forlorn, but some is downright misleading, angry and inappropriate. It was largely due to these recent postings that I agreed to write this essay.
Reid did much that was good for Clara and gave her many hours of joy. Nothing can ever take that away from him, and regardless of how this ended, I remain grateful to him for the good he did, and hope that this means as much to him now as it did to Clara then. I also remain eternally grateful to everything that Steve did for Clara and for our family during what was a difficult and painful time. Steve was consistently there for Clara in ways that no one who was not there could ever comprehend — theirs was a true friendship of the purest order.
I have told this story in as fair, candid, honest and accurate a manner as I can, upholding Clara’s and my own standards for integrity and truth. I offer this with deep love and enduring respect for Clara. While I welcome any response to my words, I cannot promise that I will engage in further dialogue. I have said my piece, and accept that this chapter is over and it’s time to move on.
With our release of Clara’s “Lost Album”, we hope that her real message will provide whatever other closure is necessary. The mere fact that Clara and Nadia, and Lev Sergeyevich and Bob Moog, can still provide us with such powerful beauty and inspiration long after they are gone is all we really need to remember.